Belittle; when lack of confidence strikes.

I remember reading one awesome story on a fanfiction site and saw the author's note written below the updated chapter. I need to tell you this, she's a great writer. The kind that writes stories that never fails to amaze and surprise the readers. Yes, she's definitely one of those 'magical'authors. However, what was written below her story update was a profession of disappointment over her story; she even said that it's not good and that it's crap. I sat there, gaping at my laptop's screen, mentally scratching my head and thinking about how a great writer like she is can say that to her own story. I mean I was like, "don't you know how much I envy you for being so good?!" Her story was perfection!

This suddenly got me thinking about why most people tend to belittle their own skills.

I myself am guilty of this; most of the time I disregard the fact that I am actually good at something, doubting and stressing over how pathetic I see myself and my works. I lack confidence, I lack trust, but most of all, I guess I am just not satisfied with my abilities. It's bad I know, ethical issues on questioning God-given talents may even come into discussion, but really, I am insatiable. I keep telling myself that I can still grow, that I still have room for improvement. But those thoughts only come to me on the verge of giving up, and it offers short-lived assurances.

What if I never hit that phase of development? I fear being stuck with the little knowledge I currently possess. 

I crave for perfection, and am too hungry for improvement.